story of the day

This morning I woke up at about 3:30 AM and my legs were really itchy. I thought it was dry skin so I tried to go back to sleep, but after a few minutes I decided to get up and go put on lotion. Well, when I did, I found four brand new bug bites that were quickly swelling. I didn't know what they were from, so I put Benadryl on them, kind of freaked out for a minute, and then decided to go look in my bed to see if there was a spider there or something.

It was dark and my roommate was sleeping in the room. I didn't want to wake her up. I threw back my covers and looked around by the light of my cell phone. Nothing. Weird. I decided to change my clothes and sleep on the couch just in case there was a spider in my clothes somewhere.

I slept well. Finally I woke up at 9:40 when I heard my roommate get up. I told her about the bug bites, and she said that she had seen an ant on her arm last night. She proceeded to get ready. I went back into my room, threw the covers off my bed to find hundreds of black ants in my sheets and blankets, on my curtains, crawling on my floor, all over my walls, on the baseboards...

Bethany (roommate) and I sprayed everything with Windex. I threw all the linens in the washing machine (which surprisingly did not kill the ants, it took drying everything to handle that!). I brought ant spray after church, and we've sprayed everything down twice now. I also wrote an unhappy note on my RA's door asking for help.

So how was your morning?!

:)

much more to write about later.

dear myspace,

If you have to put things on your website like "Note: do NOT click back in your browser window!" then that probably  means there is something wrong with the way you are coding things.

Tom's notes about things being "down for maintenance" or "we're fixing this soon!" are also not very reassuring....

Please fix things.

Stop adding new features. They're confusing and only make things worse. Take a course in HCI and do some user studies about how people like your site...everyone's accustomed to it, but that's not an excuse for poor design. On my home page I see at least eight ads, seven drop-down menus, eight tab menus, six boxes, and five edit links. Do you really think people enjoy it being that complicated?

Instead of adding new things, make your code bulletproof. Fix your design. Then, focus your energy on doing what you do well first, and then expand after you've got something stable going. There are challenges to building and maintaining something so big, but I have faith that you can handle it.

k thanks!

lauren

i'm not necessarily pro-Obama, just anti-ignorance.

visiting Clemson

Well, I just got back from visiting Clemson yesterday/today because it is currently my top choice for grad school.

I really don't even know how to begin reflecting on or processing the visit in my head. It's so weird because I only applied to Winthrop for undergrad so I've never been through this whole visiting potential colleges thing before. I mean, I've stayed at UNCC and Virginia Tech for extended periods of time so I know what it's like to go to a unfamiliar school and to settle there, but with REU things I was just kind of thrown in there and figured it out as I went. It's not like I visited the schools first and then chose where to apply. With this decision, it's all my choice (assuming they accept me). I'm the one picking what I want to study and where I want to live and it's overwhelming.

I liked Clemson. It's a really pretty campus and the surrounding area's pretty as well. It's a very small town and the people I met were very friendly. It feels safe, and it feels like people are happy to be there, which I think is a good sign. There is a lake and trees and open fields and overall lots of good places to spend time outside. I feel like I would be happy living there.

I think I'm about 90% sure that that is where I'll be going next fall. It meets the characteristics I think I want in a grad school (smaller town, east coast, nice people, good professors, temperate weather, safe). Besides, Dr. Hodges is there. I know how important the advisor/student relationship is during grad school and I really can't imagine having a better mentor. We've proven we work well together and that's extremely valuable. 

Also exciting is that we'd be practically starting a new lab. That means we get to define who we are, what we do, what lab culture's like. It might be more difficult building from scratch but I think it would be worth it to have that kind of freedom.

It was a good visit. I'm glad I went and that I was able to go with people I knew. I know I was quiet most of the time but I was thinking a lot about things...it's just a really big decision and I want to make the right one. I'm sure I will :)

Soooo sleeeppyyyy...but no nap for me this afternoon. Mom's invited the new music minister from their church over for dinner tonight, so she'll need my help cooking and cleaning and such. It's okay, I don't mind too much. Maybe I'll just take an early bedtime tonight.

Four days of real summer left. I move in Sunday and classes begin Tuesday and then time begins to move a lot faster. As soon as school starts there will be more things to do than there are hours in the day to do them, but with only 14 hours of classes I should be okay. I need to start planning and writing about all the things I need to accomplish this year. I have to do things like grad school applications, research paper conference submissions, SLC team leader stuff, finding someone to mentor, applying for graduation, taking GRE, programming competition studying...the tasks are endless. Once I get in school I'll be able to get everything organized in paper and in my head and it'll be okay. Right now, though, with so much family-related going on and my things scattered in boxes all over the place it's so hard for me to focus and write down what all I need to be doing, much less actually begin to accomplish things.

short-term tdl:

- Pack boxes to go to school

- Write documentation for Virginia Tech research project

- Spend some time with Victoria before she leaves

- Practice piano (scales & new piece) so Ms. Austin doesn't think I forgot everything over the summer

- Make a list of grad schools to look into

now to accomplish it. later!

mccain & obama in tonight's civil forum

Well, I watched it. I usually don't pay attention to political things, but I figured that I have a responsibility to begin thinking about who I will vote for this November, and when I heard that Rick Warren would be interviewing each of the candidates I decided that that would be two hours well spent. And it was.

First of all, I really like the interview technique used. When candidates try and debate they always get all angry and competitive and so off the point. This way, they don't know what their opposition said, so they don't get all defensive. I enjoyed hearing them just talk about things and hopefully answer honestly.

Cool points to Google for indexing things so quickly! I can almost find a list of the questions asked right now. I think for the moment I'm just going to address the ones that stood out in my mind though.

How do you define what is rich for purposes of taxes?

Neither answer was perfect, but I much preferred Senator Obama's answer over McCain's. Obama gave a number ($150,000, I believe) and said anyone below that was middle class or below, and anyone above $250,000 was rich, and that the rich should be taxed more, and the poor taxed less. Senator McCain said that it doesn't matter, he wants tax cuts for everyone and wants everyone in America to be rich. He said that he does not favor redistribution of wealth.

I disagree with McCain on this point. I don't think that everyone should be rich, and I am very much in favor of redistribution of wealth. The growing gap between rich and poor is unacceptable and one way we can balance that is through taxes.

When does a baby get human rights?

From a moralistic perspective, I agree with McCain's answer: "At the moment of conception." From a holistic perspective, though, I enjoyed Obama's deliberation: how can we decrease the number of abortions? We have a pro-life president right now and still abortion stands; I doubt it will ever change just because that's what society wants, apparently. I appreciate McCain's pro-life stance but I would like to see him address the root issues like Obama did as well. You kind of have to take what you can get. It doesn't look like abortion is going to stop so you have to move forward from that and figure out how to make the best of the situation.

Is there evil and what should we do about it?

I appreciated Obama's broad view of what evil is and his humble admission that we can't conquer it, only God can. I thought McCain's view of evil was narrow; he only addressed terrorism related issues, and said we should defeat them. I'm all for defeating terrorism but I think that evil is more extensive than bin Laden et al. .

What is your definition of marriage, and would you support an amendment to the constitution defining marriage?

Both gave good, appropriate definitions for marriage: one man, one woman. I liked that Obama highlighted that it was a sacred union as well. Personally I think I support Obama's stance in not supporting a constitutional amendment and allowing for civil unions. I think McCain said he would support an amendment, which is actually probably okay too. I wish McCain would have talked about what he thought about civil unions.

Ummm...yeah, those are the ones that stood out. Overall observations:

- McCain tended to use more of a storytelling approach, while Obama used more of a "show my train of thought and how I got here" approach. I think that these are both valid means of expression but that each may appeal to different groups of people. For example, I think college kids will be a lot more open to Obama's "showing his work" than McCain's short, pat answers, while older generations may be much more comfortable with McCain's confidence and unapologetic stances.

- They both agreed that their quest for presidency is about inspiring Americans to live for something bigger than themselves. I thought that was cool.

- Both affirmed faith in Christ as being forgiven for all their sins.

Such difficult, weighty decisions.

In other news, I'm back from Alabama, it wasn't as bad as I expected. I survived, anyhow. :) I learned a bunch and I met new people and it was good. I'm home for a few days, visiting Clemson Monday-Tuesday, and back to school the following Sunday...ahhh craziness!

More later, I'm sure.

What'd YOU think about the interviews tonight?

i'm in alabama

and dealing with a variety of social issues that literally make me nauseated to think about.

This is not like me. Generally I'm outgoing and confident and can handle pretty much anything you throw at me, but a few events that have happened over the past weeks along with my momentary disposition are just not making this a good time.

pray for me. i have three more days here.

paradox

Coming back from the Y this morning I was thinking and I realized that my current reading list will soon be God's Passion for His Glory by John Piper & Jonathan Edwards, and God Is Not Great by Christopher Hitchens. Hahah.

I really do want to read both of them. Reading them together should make it even more interesting.

Vacation was good. I read/finished four books over the past week: Pride & Prejudice, A Prayer for Owen Meany, In the Beginning Was The Command Line, and Flatland. They were all good. I would recommend each of them wholeheartedly. Other than that, I spent a lot of time being at the beach, sleeping, spending time with family, etc. We went into Charleston a couple days. I finally got to see The Dark Knight! It was good.

Since getting back I've been working on presentations for the STARS Alliance conference in Alabama in a couple days. I'm looking forward to it; it should be fun. I need to finish my presentation. I've also been catching up with a bunch of people. Friends from Virginia were visiting Charlotte on Saturday so we went to dinner and Southpark (where there was a 50 person line for the Apple store, with it being tax free weekend and all. Craziness.). Kaci and I went to Target and the Phat Burrito on Monday, Maleigh and I are supposed to be hanging out tomorrow, and I'm going to dinner with Laura Friday. It'll be good.

I ordered a MacBook. UPS says it's in Charlotte now. *taps foot impatiently*
I also bought a new camera since I broke mine, and I got a free iPod Touch with my MacBook. I have spent sooo much money this week. Oh well, all these things are investments. I'll keep and enjoy them for a long time. (Well, as long as technology can be kept and enjoyed. I guess about three years? Four or five if you're pushing it...)

K, sorry to be boring. I'm done!